Alot of us are just plain ol’ exhausted. But we keep going.
I myself am. I know I come forward with ‘keep going’ and ‘rise and shine’ yet I struggle with finding the energetic spark that makes the keep goings and the rise and shines as exciting as I used to feel them.
The truth is that more times than not knowing that I must wear each and every hat to make my creative universe move within it’s orbit and to fulfill the needs of all the planets within my orbit so that they move efficiently within theirs is, exhausting.
So you stick to the simple. The easy. The do able. Because you gnow the plans you’ve had before and how ‘life’ can ‘life’ throwing everything into total chaos and darkness yet you float around in outer space using every tool God gave you; imagination, visualization, word, feeling, intelligences and activities of the hands and teeth to grab hold of and to quarantine whats left until you can find some sort of stability to assemble it all back together again. One piece at a time.
I know what it’s like to be completely capable. To stand within the total gnowledge of my capabilities and have one move that propels a chain of events rearrange the structure in which the capabilities were stacked upon one another initially. Sort of like taking out the enite laundr cabinet of folded towels and restavking them one at a time.
To know what it’s like to see how they’ve been rearranged and to feel the power from the experiences that comes from walking thru such things and yet not have the wherewithal nor feel able to challenge the abundance of your very own soil so that all God has planted can be reaped in multiples of what we all call prosperous – bountiful & abundant as you normally would is confining, depressing even. It is because all God has put into you to deliver is done so not by the sweat of the brow but by the meditation of the heart. Not by force (Will), but by the flow (Spirit). That’s where the power is friend. That’s where you reap the strongest result from the efforts you bring forward. But I was exhausted from all the instability, the change, the frustrations, the ambiguity and the fear that came with them all.
If you come in and out of enough in life within a short time you gnow all these things to be true. Be proud of the work you’ve put forward. I am. Gnow that its authentic and that it came from a place deep within. I’ve paid a lot to capture the essence of it and offer it up to you. So much more of it is waiting to be expressed. And it flowers out in it’s own time. You cannot expect a flower that grows in the darkness to flourish like one growing in direct sunlight. It takes longer to grow because it’s using all it has to capture what little light it has around it.